Nights like these are the reason why I'll never be able to have a real job.
For about a year and a half now, I've had an official diagnose on my sleep disorder, and medication for it that actually works. Well, it works most of the time. And that's the problem. While the medication works most of the time, the few times that it doesn't work will make it very hard for me to keep a job. On average I'd say that about once every two weeks I wont be able to come in to work, or at least not be able to do my job properly. I had a lot of experience with that when I worked at Delta Data, when I used weaker medication.
While once in two weeks might not seem like much, I never know when it'll "strike". I might sleep normally for a month, then suddenly have two or three sleepless nights in one week. It doesn't matter what I do during the day either. It doesn't matter if I get up at 7am or 3pm. It doesn't matter if I sleep at any point during the day or not. It doesn't matter if I've been physically active or not. I can't imagine any employer wanting someone as unreliable as that as a full-time employee.
Nav, or at least my case-worker there, has recognized this as a real problem, and the last time I had an appointment we talked about me possibly getting some sort of flexi-time employment somewhere. Basically a job I can do when I'm able to, and where it doesn't matter too much that I can't come in on any given day without warning. The problem is; Where the hell can I find something like that? As already mentioned, I can't imagine an employer wanting an employee like that.
I don't really know what to do about this. I mean, there's nothing more I can do about my sleep. I've tried everything, with no luck. The medication just doesn't work 100% of the time. And I have no idea where to start trying to find a job like that. I like the idea of it, I'd very much like to be able to use my time for something useful when I can, but I just don't see it happening. Unless it's through Nav again somehow, like when I worked at Delta Data. But I doubt they'd want a permanent solution like that. And I don't think I'd want that either, as it probably wouldn't pay very well.
I hate nights like these....
Hva med å forsøke å satse en annen vei? kanskje en kombinasjon av to jobber? En jobb du hovedsakelig kan gjøre hjemme. Og en jobb 2-3 dager i uken, kanskje fortrinnsvis på ettermiddag/kveld? Nå i disse internett-tider, er det jo utallige jobber man kan gjøre hjemmefra... Kanskje det er en mening med at du som har denne lidelsen er så flink på data? Og språk, for den saks skyld? Og også utdannelse er lett å skaffe seg pr nett... snart ferdig med ett excel-kurs, og har også startet på ett powerpoint-kurs.
ReplyDeleteDet er sikkert mulig, jeg vet bare ikke hva eller hvordan... Eller noe, egentlig. Og jeg orker ikke å styre med noe kompliserte greier, i hvert fall ikke nå. Jeg vil bare ha noe som funker, som jeg kan trives med, og tjene litt mer penger på enn det jeg får nå.
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